18th ? Or Weird day

Today again I caught in the rain. Today was totally a very surprice for me. I don't know how to say, should i say i'm happy ? or ? Because i think too much ? Until now i still thinking the same question. I am totally sad today. Compressing myself not to do anything stupid. Really.. Really.. mood very down and low. I just need to hear everything is fine, i just fooling with you before this. But who know ? You disappear like you last time do. =(