Days without her no 24 days

Today my house having a party for count down for the year 2009
Now i am a person who almost drunk..
Many ppl at my house...all those i know since standard 4
All my best friend...now we all rest and drinking wine..
I drink it fast....that make me feel dizzy right now...
Duno she there have party to count down or not..
Did she invite other person but didnt not invite me..
My friends keep on asking me to send a msg to her...
But still i dont dare to..duno wat she going to reply me with...
I scare i become the old me again...
The mouth full with sweet thing with others girls..
My head feel heavy...very heavy...but still not sleepy..
I drink to forget the pain..借酒消愁..
Got to continue drink...see ya

Days without her no 23 days

Todays i purposely ask my dad past by '静私'..
Just to look whether she doing her hmwk there ??
suddenly think of what she doing...
I wan to msg her but still i dont dare...
ohh...the performance that me and my church take part in...
It show on the newspaper...
The KB mall performance was show at "南样商报" 19th december...
the picture i like it so much as i stand behind her...
I think many thing...all about her...
think we go anywhere together...
we have fun together..
But all that is just my imagination

Days without chocolate lynn NO 22

Today i suddenly think of her..
Is she doing her hmwk now...
My friends ask me to sms her...
But i dont dare...
I still remember how i make her smile..
and how i make her cry...
she is a person that cry easily..
nth to say...playing spiderman's game

No 21 days didnt chat with her..

Already so long dy didnt contact her...
But her memory inside me still keep on turning and showing..
I still remember the the first place we realy have fun...
Just now i went shopping for new year shirt...
i saw a slipper...not mine but i look like my friends slipper...
so i take a photo of it...

The days and the night

This recently i cant online...duno why the line or wat damage dy...
This 2 day just stay at home...
Imaginating the face....thinking how when the school reopen..
wan to invite to have lunch again or not..
Everytime i heard the msg tone rings...
While when i open it..i wish it was a msg from her..
As i wont msg ppl first..i always the one who reply msg..
Not the one who send the msg at first...
Duno how was she now...
Just know i am very down now...
"always suan him,we are friend mah" ??
Haiz...nvm dy....have these feeling once..now the second time... [=.=]

Confusing Feeling

These 2 day i realy cant online at my house...but today finaly can lo..
There is one thing i forget to write on my last post...
That party,the one who suddenly treat me so good...
She is beautiful...the most beautiful girls that i ever seen...
Lucky the makeup was not so thick..so it suit her..
She realy look nice that day...realy do...
Today i went to the workship..
Then we having lunch there...i accidentally....
Dont say it better...
Then i follow my form 5 friends go to mall...
I meet her again...OMG,i think is this call 缘..
she smile at me...i almost fainted....
It make me happy and happier...
I have some bad news...
I cant make myself too excited or too angry...
Or else i will feel the pain inside me...now i think i am a freak...
time to upload picture again...
I like this Wallet very much....Thx you


The time at KB Mall

The time at Aunty Judy's house

Tonight going to stay at Aunty's house...
This 2 say cant online...the line sot dy..
Now also online at people's house...
Yesterday we perform at KB mall...
Then i straight away tumpang my friend's car go to yaa pin house..
But it also late dy...just reach there say a harlo and happy birthday..
Then need tumpang another friend's car went back to jalan hamzah there..
Just just now we having a count down party at here...
We all having fun...but curiously why that one suddenly treat me so good...
Smile..play..chit chat...so weird..
But still i like the present she gave me...thx for the body glove wallect...
I like it very much...wan to sleep dy..
So i dont say too much dy....
2moro i will just upload most of the picture of performance at KB mall...

Tired day....

Today wake up early then fast wash up...Dont wan to be late...
Because i following the birthday girl for today went play badminton...
Today i remain so silent...
First time i felt i so silent....
Curiously...i think is it may be what this few week happen de thing...
After badminton i walk to KB mall there...
I wan to go to Aunty Judy's house to take the picture of 20th...
Walk under the hot sun and a long road...
When i arrive there...i just know hv dance practice at 4pm...
Waliao,no body tell me...
Just going to reach 4pm,i recieve a msg...
Today have practice at 4pm...
Her reminder msg sure early enough...
upload some nice photo...video dont wan upload le......too ma fan

sick days

I realy get into sick right now...

Serious headache and some fever...

I wont send msg and tell others that i am sick...

And wan others to care them...

Seriously can i realy pretend nth till the rest of my form 5 life....

My friends keep on saying that guy ugly lah...you more handsome..

They just keep on 安慰 me...

I glad they are my friends....

still didnt get anypicture from others...

But i have some picture,some nice view pic...that help me calm down that day

Chrismas party

Finally get home at 2.o5 am...so late...
We all perform nicely...
Although some make mistake..
But still we all enjoy at there...busy the whole day at there...
Come back home still wan to write blog...
Have some picture but no video...
Didnt take from them yet...
Wait i get it all just upload in bah...
Today heard a bad news...
These time i should not write on blog...
I will keep it inside my heart...
But say truthly...i dont like to sit at my sit....and on the other hand i like it too..
I like it because have my friend at the same table too...
I dont like it also have reason...reason that will make me down for the next three month...
So i just dont say it,but lucky i still can control my temper...
Nowadays i not the same...i am different...i am special...

Have a bad day

Yesterday night i feel sick...the sore throat and some fever...My throat damn pain
And i silent for the whole day today...
Today didnt go to church as may be dont wan meet someone...
I decide just go take the shirt then go away...
But still no go because of raining...
Just now heard a song... "巧克力,巧巧克力....."
Then i think of someone...as i give her this nickname...
Actually now still sick...+ dont hv mood to write thing...
Haiz.....

What this 2 days happen

This 2 day..
Duno how...just know that i cant online...
Duno why the line sot dy...
yesterday night we went for the rehersal at Grand River View..
When i arrive there..i went to the swimming pool area..
While at there i can see the river of kelantan...
At first i doesn't dare to shout...
Then i went for the second time... then i shout "烦啊啊!!!'
It helps alot...but still not enough...
This thing keep on having...days by days....
Because i meet her everyday while hv practice..
now even hv the handiplas,my leg still bleed and hv a hole there..
Today practice again at aunty judy house...
I know she going somewhere,but duno where...may be go dating gua...
So important till need to take bath at aunty house...
Duno why,now i just know may be is me who jealous gua..
But still,if wan make myself happier...
I have so many friends,so many ppl like me...less her also dont mind..
I need to be unemoction,feelingless...and i going to face her..
i going to forget,i going to be strong...i wont let myself down...
加油!!! 陈炜宏...I can do it,i can do anything if i wan to...
She wan treat me like this...i treat her back on the double...
I should/must/sure/need to face her...

Here hv some video

WTH !!!!!

I wish i not in this world...
I wish i didnt born out...
I wish i stop breath at this moment..
I wish i never stay at this state...
I wish i never know her...
I wish i dont hv emoction..
So that while i heard the msg sound,the comment,the face..
I wont be sad....haiz

Am i realy insane

Today is a rainy day...
I decided to walk to aunty judy's house which at Jln hamzah...
I start walk from 2.15pm...My air already wet but i still walk there..
It take me 1 hours to reach there and my wound at my leg start bleed...
At first no body know i walk there...but start awhile by awhile many ppl know..
today figure out some thing....if 100& = well fine healthy positive...
Now i sure is 15%...
People say while you realy bad mood...you sure get sick easy
Today i already get wet...and i try to make myself happy....but i cant..
Pretend nth better than pretend something...
Before blogging i have many thing to write...and i think many thing while dinner time...
But now,suddenly nothing to say...
May be forget it is the best thing...but...
May be i should not write my painful in these blog..Pain pain sad sad sad...haiz...
I wont give up easly...Arghhhhhhhhhh
Why everytime that the person that i friend with like me..
not the person that i close and have feel de do so...
Are the god playng me or those ppl playing me...
Am i so good to be bully...or i never say no before...
or i always too good and help ppl instead saying "sui bian"
There is many thing inside me that i wan to express it out...
But there is nth that can let me to express...
I wan shout...but if i shout my parent will hear...
I wan hit...there is nth that can let me hit..except for the wall
Someone tell me that writing a blog is a way to express your feeling,it help...but not much
Why these feeling thing always is me...not the others...

I am useless...

Today the cloud block the moon...
So did my emoction..
The sadness and painess blog all my positive feeling...
Sorry aunty i lie to you...
I realy wan to be alone and walk home...
Not i dont wan you fetch me..but her reaction make me....haiz...
Walk so far also at last reach home safely...
I wan to laugh, i wan to smile....but i cant to it today...
Once i see her face,with the angry or duno wat face...i just......
If realy i should forget about it then make it nth happen....
If i can do so...i think tonight also wont recieve her msg...
Duno that if is she waiting for my msg......

Realy miss the chit chat/play

This few week realy seldom sms with her dy...
miss that feel so much...
why it become this...
is it me who change or avoid...or her...haiz...
Have ppl ask me before,'she pretty meh ??'
She not pretty but she kind good and many thing nice too...
Today practice dance again...
Seen her again...
Today mood will be moderate...
just as usual...not happy not sad...
And know a new friend...from kk
Her face look like 17...but actually she is 15...
wan play game le....haiz...selfishcated

Emoction me. ??

Today went for dance practice by guo xiang car...
while we practice and practice...
While doing some break dance move...i fall...
I feel pain but not the pain inside me..
Our relationship become very weak and less contact...
Is it me..?? that time i shouldn't be so honest...
Then i still pretend nothing,i can be a actor sooner...
MY acting that no body know...
Oh,i reject a work too...just now my fren call and ask me to...
I rejected it...duno why i rejected it...
May be for her,them,it..or this perform..
I miss the chance to change my Hp...and buy others thing...
Haiz...adorable....

The whole day with all good thing

Starting in the morning i went for breakfast then go to church...
Also the same thing like last week...
But today i notice that there was a roof top view at there...
So i went there alone and enjoy the view...it make me calm
Then having our lunch too....
Chatting and playing...
Then went to 'pasar' to buy smth for those present...
I am the one who take all the thing...
Because i am the only boy again....

Then we went to aunty judy's house for dance practice again...
On the way there...someone became a handsome boy leh..haha..[the one who always cubit me]
Then we practice lo...this time we practice well and well and nice...
then we all enjoy at there,espeacially playing...
Just now have dinner at "sun too" (black paper chicken chop) it delicious...
Long time didnt eat such thing....
Then went to look for the long pant for dance de...
But didnt buy it...but buy a new shoe..Yeah,it nice...Wuhahaha
then come back and take bath and now blogging...
Tomorrow practice dance and sing...haha
Hope will get a wonderfull perform at [Grand River view] and [KB Mall]

Todays schele...

Yesterday sleep at 2am then wake up at 6am..
Haha,I going to take the motor exam mah...
Go there we line up and take our number..
I=22,Ah choo=23...while...
When its my turn...i wait so long that,the officer just ask me to start...
It make me more nervous...
Lucky...I pass it...haha...

Then later in the affternoon went for dancing practice again..
this time more difficult move...but still we all ready work hard for it...
dance dance dance till having dinner at there...
then went for singing practice again...
It already night...
Today duno what wrong...I enjoy singing all the way....
Sing good,fine,better and better....
I feel proud at it...

Supper with them again...only a few lo...
but still i happy and enjoy watching.....
then get home...it just 11pm...usually back at 12pm de
Just arrive home and...you kow wat..
My parent went out for their own activity too...
Unbelieveable,usually is me who late...
this time they both went out without me....
tomorrow going to church again...then practice...
i feel tired dy...but still..
while holiday..want ki siao abit...late sleep tonight...

Tired..

I feel sick these 2 days...
While i breath hard i feel the pain...
Duno what wrong...
May be is too over dy...
While we were practicing....practice till very high...
so become like this gua...

Later going to practice motor and 2moro going to take the exam...
Nervous a bit...but still can gua..i think....

moody

Realy sad...
Blackout 2 time already..
Wat wrong with me and my house...

What wrong with me today

Today went to Aunty Judy's house practice dancing...
Duno why the always happy go lucky me become a moody one....
Hard to smile today...
All the long just...
Haiz,may be something happen to me ?
keep on thinking thing today...
Old thing,past thing,new thing....

Just now duno why my wound keep on having slidely pain....
haiz...moody...

Happy or depress day ??

Nothing special happen during the day...

But during the night someone find me...

She ask me a question that i dont wan answer...

It realy a embarrass question..

"Did you....."

Finally i also tell her my answer....and ask her to keep it a promise...

Then later on sms with another people...

I tell that people all the thing & question she ask.....

"But...Actually whats your answer in your heart? Huh?"

[As at that time i duno wan to reply wat,and just think...then]

"Har?"

"Nothing nothing..."

[Then bravely say something out]

"say the trutg....Is got de lah....."

[She also late reply]

"Bla bla bla bla bla bla...Didn't see."

[I also pretend]

"Har....Har....Me write wat also duno"

Whoever saw my blog...

Help me keep it a secret yah.....

Nervous feeling...cant sleep well tonight

Practice for Chrismas

Today i clean up my room..
Then suddenly a massage from Wei lynn..
...............
Wei lynn : Wey..Later you got go to Jonathan's house or not ?
Weihoong:Har ? Why ?
Weilynn : For dance practice lah..You dont know meh ?
Weihoong:Dont know leh,+dont hv ppl fetch.....Wat time ?
...................................
Still hv many,lazy to type....

That time i already doing my own thing liao lo...
Miss the practice....haiz....
Then later on 8.00 we all practice singing at church....
Today everyone sing till happy and sing good....
As they wan to choose ppl for solo...
They ask we all sing one by one...
You know what...>.<
They say my sound sing till hv feeling...but unfortunaly i not involve in solo.... :(
haiz...then keep on singing lo..till 11.00...
me and some friend go Oriental for supper pulok...
Chit chat at there...Thx Jonathan for treating us....Thank you very much...
Lastly i notice that someone look great today,with red&white sript shirt...
Sexy..hot.. ?? Both also got...realy she look nice today...very nice

Finish my blogging....now for MSn pulok...

Pain

Yesterday i hv a motor accident again...
I fall down AGAIN !!.....i hate it...
While i take bath,it was so PAIN...but still i pretend like nth...
As dont wan my family worry about me...
This time everytime i take bath also so pain pain....

Today went to church at 10.30am...
We go there sing at first...
Then discuss about the bibble....
Then hv our lunch....as i was happy that i can stay close with all of them
Later on go David house play...dota,boom ppl,say someone bad thing too....
Then hv dinner with Aunty Ah ying,Adrain and Wei lynn...
After dinner ?? Ofcause go back home lo..
But now still the wound at my body very pain...pain...

haiz....

Today do some physic at home as i didnt go out...
rest for a day...then keep on watch movie and do hmwk at the same time...
2moro night going to church dy....dont wan to sleep again tonight...

mood keep on getting high and low....
high awhile....
then low awhile...
low dy then high...
high dy then low....
Save meeeeee..

4 days at kb mall..

Today i just sleep 2 hours...i sleep at 7 am till 9am...
haha,playing game for the whole nigh....
This 4 days....every day ppl see me walking around at mall
then go mall for a while then go aunty judy house...
as the same,we play talk and discuss the dance that we going to perform...
then as this going on till almost 6pm...
then we youth go to mall....snorker...chatting...eat....and walk...then go back again...
we hv supper pulok....then my dad came to fetch me....
i wan to go home late...as can play with them a little longer...
but still there hv many chances....
ok lah...planning not to sleep again tonight....chao

Another busy day

Today i wake up at 12.00pm...so late...
because yesterday talking with smone till too late dy....

In the affternoon i went for motor practice,
What the hxll,i so embarress,first 3 round keep on making mistake.
But lastly still can affort do to it well....

At night,i having dinner with 2 form 5 and 1 form 4...
we have our dinner at noodle station,then walk and walk....
then we go to airport to eat KFC again...
We have a large 'Tanki' leh....
After that i ask them to send me to church....
Just as i outside the door,decide to sms see the situation...
Aunty ah ying come out....she bring me in..
Firstly i sit there look they sing...
Then later on Aunty judy ask me to join them,sing together...
Shy shy shy,then i walk to them and start sing with them...
I think i going to join them for the performance dy....

Supper with Jonathan,nicholas,kok xiang,ah yang,adrain,david,gerald,jolynn,wei lynn,leia...
We at there talk eat chit chat....
then later i eat the yellow lemon,gerald also do so,but he just eat the place where the fruit,
but not the skin....i eat whole of it....is that very strange...seen like everyone think i am a alien..
May be i realy are,i eat 2 of it....but still....i used to eat strange thing and drink mix water....
so i feel nothing at all...
Going to talk again later...may be...ok lah...good night to all...sweet dream